Hi Lindsey,
Welcome to the site!!! Know that you are surrounded by women that know exactly how you are feeling. The ttc journey kind of snowballs doesn't it? Every month that you don't get pregnant makes you more upset and anxious. However you know that the emotional roller coaster can cause havoc on your cycles. It is a total catch 22 that has you running in emotional circles.
And it is soooo hard to be surrounded by other pregnant women. It is a constant reminder of what you are wanting and don't have. Feel free to vent and lean on us as often as you would like to, we are here for you!
Elizabeth

Hey Lindsey! NEVER feel guilty for venting on here! lol That's what we're here for. I've been TTC for about a year and a half now, so I can understand where you're coming from, and I definitely know the frustration when it feels like everyone around you is getting pregnant. My sister is actually pregnant with baby #6.....and that's with them trying NOT to have more kids. lol

One question I have for you........You mentioned that even when you ovulate it's not a "great" ovulation. What does that mean? Have they given you a specific diagnosis? I'm just curious because I'm still trying to figure out what the deal is with me (haven't been to a doctor...... I was given my appointment for December 15th way back in June, so it's been a long wait). I've suspected PCOS, but then the only symptom I DON'T have is a lack of periods and ovulation. I know I'm ovulating because I chart my temps, but maybe there's something else wrong..... Curious to hear your situation.

Rabidpecan- Before I went to the doctor I just thought that either you ovulated or you didnt. I found out that you can ovulate but in order for it to be a good ovulation you have to have a high progesterone level. A normal level is 8-15. My first level check was 7 and then 0.5 we figured I didnt ovulate that month. I am on the clomid which is supposed to make you have a strong ovulation and a better chance of having two eggs drop. I am new to all of this so I hope I am remembering all of this correctly. I have to go back on my 21st day and check my progesterone level we will know more then.
Elizabeth- Thankyou so much for making me feel welcome to this forum. I am so glad I found this website it is good to know I am not alone. I look forward to some good talks.

Hey lindseyg,
Maybe look into taking a yoga class once a week to help allieve your stress (and give you time to just relax and clear your mind) or what I always find strength in is education. I've read as much as I possibly can so far about male and female fertility, conception, pregnancy, etc....
The reason I do that is because then I will know if I have a control, or a choice, over something that may be preventing us from conceiving, or if there are tools to help us.
For example, we've been ttc for 8 months now, and nothing. I'm going to be 32 this month so I'm feeling pressure to get PG because we want to have more than one, so that makes me anxious. BUT, we've gone from just good old BD'ing to charting BBT, checking CM, using softcups and PreSeed, I take my pre-natals, DH is taking 1000mg's of Vit C and cutting back on the caffiene......I never know I could take all of those steps to help support fertility and conception.
We haven't gone to any doctors yet but if no BFP this month, we are going to have a SA (sperm analysis) done on my husband to start the checklist of things that could be hurting us.
I wish you luck and I hope you enjoy this site as much as I do. SO much information here from 'real life TTCers'.
I also had the same experience that you had with a friend getting her BFP on the first try. It's just the way it goes sometimes What helped me be happy is I put myself in her shoes. She may be feeling badly that she conceived so early knowing that you're struggling. So if I were her, I would hope my friend would be happy for me. Plus I would never wish TTCing this long on anyone, knowing the mental and emotional strain it puts on you....so I'm very happy for her

Interesting........now you've got me even more anxious to get to the doctor and hear what they have to say!

Hi lindseyg.... Welcome to the site.

I too know your frustration... I was married for 6 1/2 years and ended up going to a fertility specialist. My husband sperm was fine and everything with me seemed normal.... I just fell into the "unexplained" catagory. I started the clomid and did IUI 3 times with no luck! I'm now divorced for the past 4 years , engaged to a great man and TTC for the past 3 years. Finally I got pregnant in Feb 08 without any help but ended up miscarrying and haven't seen a BFP since! However I did find out I have a negative blood type so not sure if that's added to my struggle.

Also to add to my frustatration my ex husband just became a proud father to a healthy baby girl. Of course I'm very happy for him (we've remained good friends) but even more anxious to have my own now, escpecially b/c I'll be 31 this month!

Now I've started BBT charting, pre-natals, soft cups & pre seed....somethings gotta work!!!

I wish you and everyone else the best of luck and tons of baby dust!!

Nat

Lindsey welcome!!!

My story is I have 1 child. He just turned 4 on Monday. We TTC first month in June 09'. Got preggo first time!! Then I had a M/C August 9th. I was 8w1d. This month now is past my 3 cycles that most doctors reccomend before TTC again. So we are going at it agian . Plus if we concieve this month, we would have an August due date. Which is absolutely perfect for obvious reasons

Nat~Love the picture!! And I never knew about your M/C. So sorry for your loss.

Thanks Mary!!! Hope this is your month...my fingers are crossed for ya!!!

Welcome Lindsey!!! Everyone here is wonderful!

Nat-I didn't know about your miscarriage either. So sorry! When you had your miscarriage did they give you the rhogam shot since you have a negative blood type? I am negative also and had to have the rhogam shot when I miscarried.

Hi kimmi... Yes I had the rhogam shot as well. $100 dang dollars I had to pay for that thing.....Geeze!!!

Nat