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My name is Leticia. I have been in a buddy group for several months. I never thought I would want to have my own blog, but I decided I wanted to share our journey with all the awesome ladies on here. Especially since the topic of infertility is so taboo....I wish it wasn't. My DH doesn't want to tell ANYBODY. Only a few close friends and my mom know about our ttc struggles. That is why I am so grateful to have this place to share and to vent.

Our ttc journey has been a long one, and I don't know how we would get through without trusting in God. There is nothing in my life that I have felt like I have less control over than this. But I know that God is in control and that He has a plan for us, and a reason that we are going through this. I believe that when we do get the children we have been dreaming of, we will be better parents for having gone through this struggle with infertility. They will be more precious to us. We have been married for 4 years, 9 months. I am 31 and turning 32 in 3 weeks. DH is 45, and has male infertility due to a pituitary disorder. I quit taking BCP after we had been married 1 year. We weren't actually actively ttc at that point, but I thought, OK, maybe I'll be pg in a few months...But it never happened. Then DH started going to a urologist and he had low T and found out about the pituitary problem. So before we even started trying, we knew we were going to have a hard time getting pg.

Fast forward a few years...this past January my hubby got a new job, and our health insurance that we have now covers infertility! We felt like that was an answer to prayer because it seems we are not going to get pg without assistance, but we could never afford it. DH did a SA at the end of May and we got the results back last weekend. It was not good...total count was 16.8 million, but only 12% motile, so .9 million motile sperm. Even though we didn't have high expectations, he was pretty bummed.

Our first fertility appt is this Wednesday. I am really excited! I was doing some research on the internet last night and found out that they like to have 10 mil swimmers to do IUI with the minimum being 5 mil. My heart sank when I read that. I guess we will have to go straight to IVF. We'll see what the Dr. says. IDK maybe he'll want DH to do another SA and see if it's better. Since we have insurance coverage, IVF is doable, I just hate the idea of all those injections, ugh. But if that's what we need to do to get pg, I'll do it.

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We are all there to support you through the journey dear. I pray you get your BFP soon Smile

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Thanks Kris! Smile

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So we had our fertility consultation yesterday. It went about how I expected. The onlly thing that dissapointed us, especially DH, was that the Dr. said he couldn't do anything to help DH specifically, because he's an OBGYN. So he doesn't treat men. Makes sense. He wants me to call them the day I get my next period and come in on the 3rd day of my cycle for the testing. But I may have to wait until August because we will be going to PA to visit DH's family July 8th-13th and AF is due to come around the 8th. So I am hoping she is late, so I might be able to go ahead and do the testing this month. He also wants DH to wait 2 months and then have another SA because he was on a testosterone prescription and he quit taking it about the time he did the last SA, because our insurance quit covering it. The doc said that testosterone supplementation can lower sperm counts and it takes 3 months to generate new swimmers. He said it probably won't be a huge difference and also that it probably won't change the motility, but it's worth a try. Who knows, maybe he was having a bad day. The doc said our only options are IVF or donor sperm. So we will probably be doing IVF in October.

I bet the next 3 months will go by soooo sloooow. I hate having to wait 3 months but we have to do the testing. We are going to prepare for this in the meantime by:

1. Pay off as much debt as we can. DH has started working some overtime so we can do that.

2. I have never been very good about sticking with an exercise program. I do it for a while then stop. So I want to start exercising regularly, starting with 3 days a week gradually building up to 5. I want to get my body in the best shape I can before I get pg. DH wants to lose weight too but it's hard for him to find time to exercise, with going to school and working extra.

3. Get rid of stuff we don't need so we can fit 1-2 babies into our 900 sq ft house. I know that with IVF there is a VERY good chance I could have twins.

If we do IVF in October and I get pg, it would be the same month my mom got pg with me. That would be cool. EDD according to Fertility Friend would be July 10th. My birthday is July 15th.

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Sending you hugs Leticia Smile ...

All will be well

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Hello! Just checking in to see how things are going. Smile Exciting about IVF! FX for a healthy baby (or two) to follow! I will keep checking in to see how things go!

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Well I guess I haven't had as much time for this blog as I thought I would, but wanted to check in now. So much has changed.

DH did a repeat SA at the end of August and it was much improved. His total mobile sperm went from .9 million to 12.6 million! So enough to do IUI, yay! I took Clomid this cycle and we are doing the IUI tomorrow. I went in for my day 12 follicle scan on Monday, and had 2 in the right ovary 14 mm, and 3 in the left between 16-18 mm! The nurse that was doing the ultrasound said they need to be at least 16, but the other 2 should be by now. She said there is a good chance for twins! Smile Small chance for triplets but I hope not. I think it would be really neat to have twins though.

DH and I watched the documentary Babies Sunday night. Very cute. I also keep seeing commercials with babies. I watch shows on the internet because we don't have cable or anything right now and was watching Castle tonight. It doesn't have many commercials, and 2 of them were babies. One was so cute it was a baby speeding down the road in a walker. A sign, perhaps?

I am so excited about tomorrow! God is in control and His will will be done. Praying that it works and that we end up with no more than 2 babies. DH goes in at 11:00 to give the sample and then I come at 12:00. GN ladies, I need to get some good sleep for the big day!

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Wow what a day this has been. Things didn't go as well as i had hoped today. DH was still there when I got to the Dr office. He wasn't able to produce much volume only .15 ml. The nurse took us back in the Drs office and tried to talk us out of doing it. They hadn't processed it yet but she said just looking at the concentration it didn't look like enough. She left us alone to talk for a few minutes while she called the embryologist to see if there was another way to process it. We talked and prayed and decided to go ahead with IUI. Nurse said it would take 30-40 minutes to process so DH went back to work and I went to the frozen yogurt place down the road Tutti Frutti. I seriously needed some ice cream or something. When I got back she said it was only 246,000 or was it 264 k something like that. The nurse was supposed to do the procedure because my doc wasn't in yet but he got got there right before we were gonna start so he ended up doing the IUI. It didn't take long at all. Then I had to lay there for 15 min. I go back in a week for them to check progesterone level, then I can do a pg.test in 2 weeks. I don't know if I'll be able to wait 2 weeks!

The nurse said DH should talk to his urologist and have him check for different things that could cause low volume, like retrograde ejaculation, etc. Since his problem seems to be more with volume than count. She also got a urine sample from him and she was going to spin it to see if there was much sperm in it. She said with low testosterone you see low counts not volume. So there could be something else going on. Tonight DH did say that he was feeling better the other time when he produced the better sample. So maybe he was having a bad day. The nurse said she has seen couples get pg with that low of a count so there is hope. Anything is possible with God. At least the swimmers shouldn't have any trouble finding an egg lol. I hope there were a few Michael Phelps in the bunch. Lol.

This has been such an emotional day. So thankful for my coworkers and boss who are so supportive. All of them have had their own battles with infertility so they know what I'm going through. This morning our chaplain prayed over me and this afternoon during our Wednesday worship service we have for the residents she prayed for those who have had babies, those who are expecting babies, and those who want babies, that they would get to hold their own bundle of joy in their arms. I teared up a little. My coworker Dru was sitting next to me and she squeezed my hand hard. She was 40 when she finally had her daughter.

Well will be waiting with baited breath to see what happens in 2 weeks. I can't get my hopes up too much. It was a long shot today, but God is in control and whatever happens I know it is His will.

I love all of you ladies and am so thankful for this board. Wishing lots of baby dust to me and all those who need it!

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good luck to you!! I will be praying for you, that this IUI does the trick, and for strength and peace during this 2ww!

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Thank you Lori! I feel pretty positive about it even though he had low numbers. Hopefully my 5 eggs increased our chances. I was taking Maca up until around O time and I suspect that's why I had 5. I know 264 K is a lot less than they like to work with but in my mind it still seems like a lot, I mean, especially when they are deposited right where they need to go and can go either way and find an egg....

I don't feel worried or anxious but still totally consumed, Googling all kinds of things pregnancy related this past weekend. At least this week should go by pretty fast, because I will be at a music/arts festival this weekend and heading up Thursday. So of course packing will consume the first part of the week. I will definitely be packing a pg test! I might test Sunday morning, which will be 11 dpiui/10dpo. The only thing with that, is I really wanted DH to be the 1st person I tell, and he won't be there. And then I would probably end up telling my mom, who will be there with me. I don't think I could keep that to myself the whole day.

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I go to the Dr to have my progesterone level checked tomorrow morning. I view that appt kinda like a hump to break up the 2ww and help me get through it. Smile