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Almost 23 weeks and I thought baby would never start kicking. DH and I took holidays from Friday the 20th to yesterday and I think the break is what we all needed. Around the 21st or 22nd, maybe even the 23rd, I started feeling these pops in my belly, like how a giant gas bubble feels. I HAVE been very gassy, so I figured that's all it was. It was persistent though. One of those evenings, we went out for dinner and I was so sad the whole time, thinking about how I hadn't really felt anything from baby except little buzzes. DH kept telling me that it would happen, but I just felt kind of robbed, like I was missing out on precious kicks that I would never get back. Funny enough, before we left the house that night I had felt the bubble pops, assuming they were gas. By the third day of feeling them, I realized they weren't gas at all. I began to watch my belly and found that it was moving with the bubbles! 1+1=2. BABY KICKS! She hasn't stopped since Smile She's very active early in the morning, around 6, and late at night, around 10-11, and she varies throughout the day, often sleeping in the afternoons and evenings. She's strong too! Just over the last few days the kicks have been stronger and stronger, enough to wake me up in the mornings and to REALLY get my attention. It's very cool Smile I can also feel when she rolls around, I get this semi-intense pressure in one spot and when I push there, it feels hard, then it moves away. This doesn't happen often, maybe once or twice a day, but it feels so strange! I'm so happy, feeling her everyday and really knowing she's in there and she's happy. She's sneaky though, I keep trying to get DH to keep her kick, he can clearly SEE it happen, but has yet to feel it. Every time I move my hand and put his where it was, she stops moving. It's like she knows. I told DH it's like Indiana Jones where he moves the idol from the stone it's sitting on and quickly puts a bag of sand there to replace it before anything happens, even though it doesn't work and he gets chased by a giant boulder of doom. That's how I feel, I try to remove my hand and replace it with DH's super quickly so she doesn't notice, but she always does lol.

Being back at work sucks. It feels like I was in a time warp. I don't think I had any concept of time or even day of the week while we were home, and trying to get back into a routine is so hard. I'm very tired, and that kinda miffs me a little because I was just noticing over the last week how I FINALLY don't feel exhausted anymore. Grrr.

We looked at a bunch of houses during our time off. We saw so many, and found a couple that we really like. Unfortunately we're still waiting for DH's jeep to sell so we will have the down payment. I'm frustrated with it, I want so badly to move and be settled and ready for baby, and we have one house in particular that we really love, and I think we might lose it before we can get the down payment. Yes, there are always more houses, but of the 30 we've seen, this is the only one with everything we want. It makes me worry that finding another, equally awesome house will be difficult.

Aside from all of that, I've been feeling good and things have been running smoothly, very uneventful still, just how I like it. Any excitement at this point would probably be unwelcomed, so I'm content being content. My skin still sucks, I've gained about 15Ibs total, and try not to dwell on that, my wedding rings still fit and are loose on my finger, I don't swell often (especially now that it's so much cooler, fall is officially here), my back hurts all the time, but I'm still seeing my chiro... And that's about it. Still counting down the days till I'm out of here, I have a countdown app on my phone and it says 84 days to my last day of work (including weekends and holidays). It's 52 or something without the weekends and holidays Smile My boss finally posted my position online, so I hope he has someone hired soon, though he told me he wanted them to start November 1st. The closing date for applications is October 11th though, so who knows, maybe it'll be sooner. Ha! I just had a thought, I'm all excited about him hiring someone and what if I hate them?! What if they are impossible and I can't teach them anything and they make my last weeks hell??!?! Nah. New people are always overly polite and hide their real personalities for a while. And hey, his taste in employees can't be THAT bad. He hired me, afterall Wink lol

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24 weeks 1 day.

We lost the house Sad I got an email from our realtors yesterday saying the house we fell ion love with finally sold, for MORE than they were asking. ugh. The market here SUCKS. I can't believe people are paying more for houses than people are asking. It scares me, are we going to have to do that too?

The jeep still hasn't sold. I swear it never will and we won't ever buy a house and we'll be in our current house without a nursery or a place for baby. I've convinced myself that that's ok, that she doesn't REALLY need a room right away. She'll sleep in her co-sleeper in our room for the first while anyways, why does she need a room? BECAUSE EVERYONE NEEDS A ROOM! SHE NEEDS A PRETTY, GIRLY, PAINTED, DECORATED ROOM JUST FOR HER! THAT'S WHY! :'( I'm not really ok with her not having a room, I just try to be ok so I don't make a scene or get too upset. It's really frustrating though.

Baby is still kicking away. I was watching my belly move yesterday, she must have been rolling around because it was like someone doing the wave under my skin. GROSSSS lol. Not really, but very weird! She seems happy Smile Of course every night I dream of terrible things. I dream that I start bleeding and that I go into labor early and that something awful happens. I'm clearly very nervous. I did book our birthing class though, FINALLY! It takes place in November, so I'm really looking forward to it! I think it'll help calm my nerves and give me some perspective. My father in law was like "You don't need to waste money on those classes". Ummmm excuse me, but how many babies have you pushed out of your body? Ya. Women may have been giving birth for thousands of years, but I haven't. I have no doubt that my body is capable of doing it, I just need my mind to get on board. I know very well that if I'm not well prepared, I will sabotage myself by thinking "I can't". I KNOW that I need to be calm and ready in order to do this. So, the birth class will help with that Smile

I've gained a total of 20Ibs now. Scary! I don't look like I've gained that much, I'm sure of it. The weight has come on very fast in the last bit though, 5Ibs in the last 2 weeks or so and 7Ibs in one month before that. My belly measured a teeny bit big at my last appointment, so I'm praying that all this weight gain is normal and that my baby is growing too big. I have my second 3hr GD test next Friday the 18th , so by the time I go to my next midwife appointment on the 30th, I will know for sure. I'm very afraid of being diagnosed with GD. My mom had it with me, and I swore I wouldn't let myself get it. I don't want to let myself down.

I'm still working out. I do my step class twice a week, spin class once a week, and a yoga/ tai chi class twice a week. I know I should also be lifting, but I'm so freakin tired! I barely have the energy for cardio, let alone for lifting. I'm worried that I'll be too weak for labor though, and my arms won't be strong enough to hold my baby all the time. Is that silly? I don't know, babies are heavy! It's geting harder and harder to exercise though. I find myself out of breath so easily. It's like I can't get enough air into my lungs. I think it's because baby is moving up and squishing them a bit. It's tough though, I find myself huffing and puffing a lot, and my legs get sore and tired, and my damn tailbone absolutely kills me. I'm getting pretty clumsy too. My belly is throwing off my center of balance. I don't feel heavier, I find it so interesting how you adapt to pregnancy and don't really feel the difference, but when I go to do my workouts I notice that I can't jump very high and my feet get sore and I lose my balance easily. Sigh.

I still want ice cream. ALL. THE. TIME. Doesn't even have to be "ice cream", frozen yogurt is awesome, sorbet is great. As long as it's cold and creamy, I'm down. It's almost euphoric, the feeling I get after the first bite. It's kind of unnerving lol. I've never enjoyed any food as much as I enjoy ice cream right now. And I don't even care. I'll eat it whenever and as much as I want to. I'm not gonna be pregnant forever, and I won't want ice cream like this after, so may as well indulge in one thing. I'm going to buy some tonight.

50 working days left!

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26 weeks.

I feel like I'm writing a post apocalyptic blog every time I start with the number of weeks I'm at lol. "26 weeks since the infection..." or "26 weeks since the incident". Bahaha.. I watch too many zombie movies. I love me a good zombie apocalypse movie. My favorite book, The Passage, is set to start filming its movie version next year I believe. I could have kittens I'm so excited! If you haven't read it, and like really amazing apocalyptic monster type stuff (but not the cheesy kind, just the give you nightmares kind), then check this book out. I'm such a total nerd, I even have the author on my facebook friends list haha...

So, 26 weeks. 14 weeks to go! How crazy is that? I keep remembering how fast my first 13 weeks went, before we told anyone, and soon that's the same amount of time I'll have before baby comes. I'm ready, and not ready at all. I've accepted that I will be having the baby in my current house, so of course I've been mentally putting the birthing pool in various rooms trying to figure out where it will best fit. I'm still thinking the living room will be best. It will fit between the two couches, in front of the TV. So I can watch something in early labor before I need to get in the pool and there will be room for everyone to sit when things get a little more serious. It's also super close to the kitchen which is good for the actual filling of the pool, and it's central, so I can get up and roam the house if I want without being too far from it. DH thought the bedroom would be better, but it would make all of those things that much harder.

I'm so uncomfortable. My hips and killing me, my back is killing me, I can barely walk most days from the pinched nerves, I'm not sleeping well from hurting and because my stupid belly is in the way, I just can't get comfortable. I feel so bad complaining, I should be all "pregnancy is amazing, I could do this a thousand times over!", but it's really, really hard and I'm exhausted! I'm so happy to be pregnant, and so excited to meet our little Bean, and I love most things about pregnancy... But I'd be lying if I said it wasn't hard. I was having a bad day earlier in the week and went to bed over tired and grumpy and couldn't get to sleep. I kept thinking that maybe if I put some normal pillows behind my back, I could create a kind of wedge that would be comfy. So I got up and stood in the hallway asking DH where the extra pillows were. He thought they were all out in the trailer but I was sure there was at least a couple in the other room. Now because our house is so small, we have no room for anything, so our glider and foot stool are in our hallway, in front of the door to the spare room. I was trying to squeeze by and pushed the chair as far forward as it would go, and couldn't fit. My belly is just too big and there was no way I was going to fit. That was the last straw. I stood there and cried lol. Then I ran off and threw myself onto the bed and cried some more about how big I am and how sore I am and how awful everything is. Ha. Attractive. DH felt bad, he asked what he could do and what I had wanted the pillows for, which of course I really didn't know because I was kind of just gonna wing it when I got them. Sigh. He gave me a back rub and I fell asleep, finally. 14 more weeks of this, and I'm only going to get bigger and more uncomfortable Oh joy!

So a couple weeks ago, DH and I were spending the day with my parents. They offered to go looking at show homes with us, just to see what was out there for new houses. We were sure we wouldn't be able to afford a new house, as we were qualified for a pretty low amount by our broker, but we went to look anyways. We found some really nice houses over in a new area of the city, and loved them. We started talking to the sales person and he told us that they were much less expensive than we had assumed. Not only that, but that particular builder gets a better interest rate with the bank than most people. So we thought about it for a week and spoke to DH's father, who is co-signing for us, and he thought buying new was a great idea too, and told us to see what they could do for us. Fast forward to yesterday, I was waiting to hear from the broker for the home builder after submitting my application with him, thinking we weren't going to qualify. When he called me, he told me that we do indeed qualify. Wow. Did not see that coming. Ok great, we can have our house! My parents offered to give us the down payment so we wouldn't have to sell DH's vehicle too, how awesome! Of course, nothing is ever that easy. Turns out I have a super old, like REALLY old outstanding mastercard reporting on my credit. It's something that we pay for monthly, along with a few other things. The broker told me that I need to pay that in full before the mortgage insurer will insure us. Great. So I call the company the debt is with and tell them I need this paid right now, which they seem fine with. I tell them the situation and he gets right on it. So I pay it, get back to the broker, and he tells me I need written confirmation that it's been paid in full. Good grief. So back to the debt company I go telling him this, he tells me that the bank can takes weeks before sending out confirmation, which I reiterate to the broker... back and forth, all day long. It was ridiculous. So as of this morning, I still don't have written confirmation from anyone and I need it to move forward. Very frustrating. Then, after dealing with that all day, I'm about to go to bed when my phone rings, it's my dad. Now, I'm a little sensitive, I mean I can sense things... It's weird, but accurate. I've had a bad feeling for the last couple days about my parents getting this money for the down payment. I've just felt like something was going to go wrong. So when my dad called me last night, I already knew what he was calling for. Turns out the money they had planned on giving us is tied up and secured until January 2014. He can access a little of it, but not the full amount. Super. So he feels so bad, my poor mom is crying in the background, they feel like they've let us down. I tell them not to feel bad, that they couldn't have known this would happen etc. So now DH is going to call his own dad today to see if he can cover the balance until january, when my dad will give him the money back, because they want to give us this money and had no intention of splitting it with anyone or running into trouble. So now, this whole thing is resting on whether or not DH's father has the extra money and can access it, and if I can get a stupid letter from the bank stating my debt has been paid. Why can't these things be easy? We might lose this deal, and thought I'm sad, I'm also kind of accepting of it. I tried not to get excited about this whole thing because it seemed like a long shot, but poor DH was really excited, so I really just feel like I'm letting him down. I guess we should know more by the end of the week.

That's about it for now, I think I covered everything.

Keeping my fingers crossed for good things!

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Hi Lindsay! Hope you are hanging in there! I can totally relate to the unhappy parts of pregnancy and also not wanting to complain. Maybe that's why I stayed away from these boards the whole second half of my pregnancy, ha! You are super close if you haven't had your baby by now, I can't wait to see an update from you!

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hey did you have your baby yet? lol im sure you are so sick and tired of people asking you that.

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