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kiwi kids
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Warning - I have a tendancy to be verbose.
Have decided tto start writing here, I think it will be helpful to get all my thoughts down.

So bit of background, I am 31, have been with DH for 11 years and married for 6. After we got married we moved to the UK to live for a few years and moved home at the end of 2007. Decided we would settle back in to work and then once I had been there long enough to qualify for paid parental leave we would 'start trying' fast forward to March of 2010 and still NOTHING!

So we say screw it can't put life on hold waiting for something that might not happen and plan a month long holiday overseas holiday. Got back from holiday in july and figured we may as well start 'trying properly' again. Except without the temping because it was driving me mental! OPKs have never worked for me for some reason (i must be special...) but have always had a ridiculously regular 28 day cycle. Figured we would have to wait until September as DH had a sports event and was away during 'the golden week' so September rolls around and we go mountailn biking and I have to stop after half an hour because I feel horrnedously ill. The next week I felt horrible all the time and hubby comments that I guess we won't be trying this month since I am sick, lord knows how I hadn't put two and two together after spending years obsessing over every symptom but POAS that night and whammo two dark lines straight away.

Pregnancy was icky for me! I was sick 24-7 for the entire time, had to keep telling myself that this is what I wanted the whole time and my dreams were coming true (but can be hard to be positive when you are throwing up every 20 mins) ended up having to take meds for the vomiting for the first 5 months but they made me such a space cadet at work that I stopped after that and generally only threw up maybe 3 or 4 times a day until I had the baby.
Also ended up having surgery while I was pregnant, when I had the 12 scan they found a 10cm cyst on my ovary and recommended that it be removed in case it interferred with the pregnancy - scariest thing I had been through at that stage!

Umm gosh this is long! So had my fantastic DD in June after going 2 weeks overdue and 72 hours of labour leading to an emergency c-section - turns out all the drama was totally worth it and I would do it all over and over again if I had to.

So now I want a head start on no2 since this one took such a long time. Got AF back and thought I was back to a 28 day cycle except I got AF dec 17th and then again on Jan 4th WTF? How are you supposed to TTC when your cycles are all up the fck? I should really start temping I guess but I don't get enough sleep or wake at a consistant time since there is a baby in the house. Maybe I should just temp anyway and see what happens?

Anyway so now I am waiting until Feb i guess to see if AF goes back to being regular. I am a major control freak so actually have banned myself from POAS unless I am at least a week late. Otherwise I would just be peeing on things all day everyday 'just in case'

Righto, that is me for now!

kiwi kids
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Also sorry for the rubbish typing. We don't have the internet out in the country where we live (honestly it is like living in 1989!) so have to do all my net access via my phone

davina
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i wouldn't read too much into the messed up cycle if it was just the one month. i dont temp(yet). but i know it would drive me nuts if i had one more thing to be ocd about. lol

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Oh Davina you are so right re temping driving you nuts! I think that it is pointless me temping as DD sometimes wakes before 6 and I am not going to leave her in her cot while I take my temp!

So I have been trying to work out when I am likely to O now that my cycle went a bit wonky. I am going to assume it is sometime between next weds and friday... I guess we should really start DTD but I got sunburnt today so not really in the mood for getting hot and sweaty, guess I was too busy putting sunblock on the baby and forgot to put it on myself. Went for a lovely walk along the beach and my long suffering hubby was so patient while I muttered away about his sister getting pregnant the second month they tried (and she complained that it was such a long wait - are you kidding me?) I am so excited that they are having a baby and a cousin for my DD but everything is always so easy for her, she is now 19 weeks and hasn't had so much as a day of feeling sick! Oh jealousy is so nasty isn't it?

Have decided that I need to lose some weight to help with TTC but not really sure where to start, I have always found running to be the best way to lose weight but ruptured my achilles tendon the summer before last and although it was pretty much back to normal, since being pregnant it is feeling tight and painful again so might just stick to walking as stuffed if I want to be damaging it again!

Hmm maybe I will see if hubby is game for a quicky, don't want to miss O if it happens earlier than normal, and it is Saturday night so should do something fun - hehe.

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Im trapped in the Midwestern US.lol. we get fairly crappy winters here in chicagoland(mainly windy and stupid cold). I would love to walk along a beach(and not the cold as heck lake michigan beach either).

that sucks about the sun burn. aloe vera is great if you can manage to endure the pain while putting it on.

if the opk's arent working out for O prediction, try saliva ferning with a microscope. i have heard it is a great predictor of ovulation. and unlike temping, you dont have to test yoru spit at 6am every day.

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Well managed to get a session of BD in last night so will just do every other day until weds and then aim for every day until the weekend. As much as I am anti temping I have now decided I will start again, I am just too much of a control freak to not be able to analyse every change in temp over the 2WW - I knew I would cave! No will power, that is me.
Went for a lovely bushwalk with a collegue of my hubby's and his wife and their two kids, they are 15 months apart and I was chatting to her about the age gap and how many kids she wanted etc. She told me a really inspiring story. They tried to get pregnant for 4 years and eventually had to have IVF to have their first baby, they assumed that they wouldn't have a second child as she felt that she couldn't go through the heartache of TTC again and then boom she got pregnant without even trying, how is that for random? I am taking it to mean that everything happens the way it is supposed to and if you are meant to have a certain number of kids then that is what will happen. It is just a pity that you can't know in advance and avoid all the wondering and doubt that TTC brings with it.
Am feeling very organised tonight, have already folded all my laundry and cooked tomorrow night's dinner. Now I only need to vacuum and clean the bathrooms tomorrow so should be able to get out for an afternoon at the beach with my little lady.

Wow have just realised that my sentances are very long, obviously I talk v fast in my head!

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Haha so much for starting temping again, my little darling decided that she was hungry at 430 and although she is fantastic and eats, gets her nappy changed and straight back to sleep I struggle to go back to sleep so when 6am rolled around I couldn't even turn off my alarm let alone use the thermometer... Maybe tomorrow.

Meanwhile I am starting to get stressed about our housing situation. We own a house about 4 hours away but my hubby got offered a MUCH better job down here so we put our house on the market and shifted down. We needed to sell asap because rent and mortgage on one income is a bit much. But didn't sell in the timeframe we needed it to so got tennants in and are renting a house down here. We have decided that for now we want to settle here but need to sell our house in order to buy here so we can properly settle in and I can start meeting new people etc. However just spoke to our tennants and the house they are building now won't be ready until April. We kind of need to put the house on the market now because once they move out we would have to have either sold it or put new tennants in as we can't afford to pay our rent here and the mortgage! Hopefully we can just sell it and have the new owners agree to delay settlement until april... So stressful!

However I know that stress is bad for babymaking so I shall try to stay positive and relaxed, but then I stress myself out about not being relaxed enough!

So in the aim of increasing relaxation, here I am in bed at 830pm haha!

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So I think I get PMS-like symptoms before I O because man am I the megabitch from hell this evening! Due to O sometime between tomorrow and Friday, prob closer to Friday I think based on my CM at the moment. Although after my screwed up cycle last month who the heck knows for sure, will be interesting to see if AF is on time or not.
Am in bed early again in the hopes of getting some sleep. Although with impending ovulation I guess I had better try to entice the hubby to bed early as well. Wonder if he will be annoyed if I use him for his babybatter then make him go back to the lounge until I am asleep, I sleep so much better alone

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i get bitchy around ovulation too. i have no idea why. the housing situation has to be stressing you out. i hope you guys get it straightened out soon. i would hate to have that kind of added stress.

i know my hubby doesnt mind one bit being used for baby batter. he actually makes sure he knows when im ovulating bcuz i wont say no to "but honey its a baby day"

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Haha nah my hubby doesn't seem to mind me using his body.

I think my body is on strike... Supposed to O either today or tomorrow but NO cm, I am a dried up old hag arghhhhhh - dramatic much?
I guess we had better keep up the BD until AF comes. Since my cycle was all screwed up this month/last month who knows what might happen, so frustraiting!

My stomach hurts, and not in an 'i'm about to pop an egg out way' it can't possibly have anything to do with the entire block of white chocolate I ate after dinner....

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I am exhausted from all this bedroom action! Pretty sure I have o'd bloody better have!
I can't believe the weekend is already over. Shaved my legs both days even so that is a pretty big commitment to BDing I think. Going to try to get one more session in tonight and tomorrow just to be sure that I catch the egg.
Found out tonight that my SiL is having a boy. My MIL is over the moon, she only wanted boy babies so getting the first grandson is a big deal for her. As long as she treats both grandkids the same it is all good by me.
Righto best get back to seducing the hubby, will have to coax him into the bedroom.