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GL in October. I am so excited for you Amber. You are on your way. Just think positive and it will be over before you know it. I wish I was cycling with you. They normally have a October cycle but since my IVF clinic moved I have to wait until January. But I will IUI/IVF buddy since I will be cycling in October. Maybe I can ask them to use injectibles rather than clomid....mmmmm.

AFM- My husband and I actually have been exploring other facilities but still agree to January IVF cycle at the military hopsital due to cost. I just hope the IUI's work but I am realistic.

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Intrigue I am totally freaking out about IVF this week. AF arrived today but after I tested Saturday I knew she would. That is when it really hit me!!! I am so distraught that I cannot do this on my own.I am mainly really scared about how I'll be if it doesn't work as AF this month really upset me. I feel so useless and let down this month!!!I know we shouldn't think like that but it is so hard to be positive from where I am standing today. I do know it is our only option though so I have to accept that. I am having my appointment on Oct 4th and will be paying for the full cycle then.I am not putting it off for any longer as I want a baby really bad and delaying it is only stopping me from fulfilling my dream. I really hope you can make a decision really soon.I know and understand where your coming from!!!! It is such a hard decision to make and until you are 100% decided that it is for you, maybe waiting is what is best for you. I am sad it has came to this but so ready for it.I even contemplated going ahead with it in Oct but I think my poor ovaries need a break.

Diane my fs didn't even recommend IUI as they don't think it really increases the chances. It was induction and IVF. I suppose she feels we shouldn't waste any more money. I'd do 3 more months of induction if I really thought it would work but I really think we need IVF. No point wasting valuable time!!!!God luck when DH comes home.You never know, miracles happen when we least expect it!!!

Amber you are so close to stimulation now.I am so glad that your spotting stopped!!! I am as bad as you, worry first and then read the info provided. Big smile Glad it is okay!!!! I am keeping everything crossed for you. I love the good stories of success from IVF. She struggled do hard and was getting ready to throw in the towel but she has said worth it all now!!!! I guess when it is meant to be it will be!!!! No matter what!!!!

Aimie good luck with hsg and S/A.

AFM I am on my 8 week break. I will be starting stimulation meds in about 8 weeks time....I wish I didn't have too, like we all do but I will be getting myself geared up emotionally and mentally for IVF but also enjoying no temping, poas, charting....All I am planning on doing is acu. Hears to hoping it works for us all....

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Hi Ladies,

Molls as you know I understand your tourmoil all to well. I am not a good decision maker at the best of times. I generally take a very analytical approach using numbers, options. pros cons etc but this at the end of the day is emotional and no analytical studies can help. For me.. I think this is a process. It was a big decision to actually decide that I want children, then the decision to be committed to my DH forever (that word still scares me). Now the decision to take the baby making into the hands of another.. today I see it all a bit like a new pair of shoes I gotta put them on and wear around for a little while before they start to feel like mine. I think that is what you will now start to do... you have done all you can do and you are mentally ready, you just now need to get your emotional body on board.. 8 weeks will be enough and we'll be here right with you every step of the way. I may end up being a couple of months behind you but it doesnt mean I wont be here for you. I understand your fears about success and I guess there is not much that can be said or done to ease those. I think from reading many forums that once the process begins the best thing we can do is somewhat hand our bodies over to the specialist and the gods. What will be will be and you'll handle it. IF you have to go again, then you'll go again.. one in all in right. Wink

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Me 35, DH 44
TTC 5yrs (5yrs previous DH BFN)
Me low AMH @ 8.4 = Low fertility
DH Low S Morphology @ 5% normal = Low fertility
2 x IVF/ICSI.... BFN - bad eggs, advised to use donor eggs.
Gave up and moved on. Then conceived naturally but had missed miscarriage.

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Diane - Thanks so much for being excited for me, I'm so excited too, I'm trying to be optimistic but realistic at the same time and it's always such a hard balance! Why is it that it seems that EVERYONE who does IVF has to do it more that once, I was looking up stats today (I know bad idea) but people have to do IVF on average of 3 times to get pregnant, its depressing and seems fishy. Anyway I wish you were cycling with me too! But IUI/ IVF buddies ain't bad. I hope and pray that you and I beat the odds and it works for us both and we have babies in 2012!!!

Molls _ I'm sorry you got AF and that you are having such a hard time. But I'm glad you aren't delaying anymore, You are right about where I was last month and it will start to feel better once you just give into the whole IVF thing and relax about TTC. I'm so anxious and definitely not without my freak outs but I feel more hopeful than I have in years right now and it feels great. Oct 4th is SO soon! It's a big appt. day for me too ! That's when I have my Vag U/S & mock transfer start my injectibles. I have been having trouble staying away from IVF stats lately and it's so bad, it really brings me down, Of course I come across a few great stories too though. I have to stay away from those sites and be positive, now more than ever.

Intrigue - How are you? Make any definitive decisions yet?

Aboyle - Your HSG is coming up soon! I hope it gives you some answers!

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Amber
TTC #1 since 2008
Diagnosed with stage 4 Endometriosis in September 2010
3 failed IVF cycles with local clinic
1 failed cycle at CCRM But we got accepted into their new study so we are trying one last time! FX!
2nd cycle w/CCRM. 3 perfect blasts out of the bunch, xferred 1, BFP!!!!
DS Born June 24th! We are truly blessed.

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Amber- Don't look at the statistics. IVF increases your chance for a baby to 50% to 60%. I was just the 40% to 50% that did not get pregnant. Relax and just know that you are doing all you can and whatever happens is meant to be. I hope you are the first IVF Buddy success story.
Honestly, I am having so much fun being in school again. Its hard to explain. Probably because I feel like my life has been on hold for TTCing. I know if I was pregnant I would not have thought about returning to school. So for me I am accepting where I am because I will be done with my nursing prerequisites by summer 2012 and if i get pregnant in October or later it won't affect me finishing them. I will be applying to my full-time nursing program in February. Once I am accepted starting school is so flexible that I can have a fall or spring start depending if I get pregnant and when the baby would be due date.

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Diane it is great to hear that excitement in your post! Amber I too have looked at a few stats and I have to agree with Diane. We just cant look, they are just numbers after all and I think all they will do is stress us more and more. I think the bottom line is that it might work and it might not. We have to prepare ourselves for either outcome and then do our best to relax and go with it.. (ha ha, I am laughing myself silly as I write this.. relax, yer right)

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Me 35, DH 44
TTC 5yrs (5yrs previous DH BFN)
Me low AMH @ 8.4 = Low fertility
DH Low S Morphology @ 5% normal = Low fertility
2 x IVF/ICSI.... BFN - bad eggs, advised to use donor eggs.
Gave up and moved on. Then conceived naturally but had missed miscarriage.

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Diane - You are so right and I know that 99% of the time, just every once in a while I get a little down when I start reading bad stories but when I stay away from them I can be positive about things. My RE told me my chances of live birth with IVF were around 50% which is amazing compared to my chances without IVF of 1% so I'll take it! Thanks so much and I too hope I'm the 1st IVF success story and I can come on here with good news and root you all on! Can I say how wonderful it is that you are so happy with school and in a good place in your life right now, that's what it's all about! and your next round of IVF will be perfect timing! That's great you will finish school before your have your baby! Love it!

Intrigue - HA! Your post made me laugh too! I hear ya! and as I said to Diane, most of the time I follow that advice and I can be really positive and happy and excited about the whole IVF thing, I'm back to that now and it's coming up so soon, it's really wonderful! I can't wait to have good news to share with you all!

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Amber
TTC #1 since 2008
Diagnosed with stage 4 Endometriosis in September 2010
3 failed IVF cycles with local clinic
1 failed cycle at CCRM But we got accepted into their new study so we are trying one last time! FX!
2nd cycle w/CCRM. 3 perfect blasts out of the bunch, xferred 1, BFP!!!!
DS Born June 24th! We are truly blessed.

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Another reason not to worry not worry. So the doctor told me to put back 1 day 5 blastocyst like a grade A outstanding quality and I got a BFN. And my friend's embryos did not even make it to day 5 transfer quality, they stayed in the morula stage which is preblastocyst stage but at day 3 they had looked really good. So the doctors told her that the outcome did not look good and suggested that she put back two rather than the one they originally wanted to do. And guess what? They both stuck! Bam-twins. She thought the cycle did not work because she got a BFN on an HPT the day before her blood pregnancy test.
So that is proof that your cycle can go either way.

So next time I am going back for two.

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Love that Story Diane! How wonderful for your friend! I am definitely transferring 2, I'd prefer one baby the first time but, I wouldn't mind twins and I hear that 2 helps your chances a bit so FX for us!!

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Amber
TTC #1 since 2008
Diagnosed with stage 4 Endometriosis in September 2010
3 failed IVF cycles with local clinic
1 failed cycle at CCRM But we got accepted into their new study so we are trying one last time! FX!
2nd cycle w/CCRM. 3 perfect blasts out of the bunch, xferred 1, BFP!!!!
DS Born June 24th! We are truly blessed.

Elizabeth
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Hi!
I just did a blog post on a book you might be interested in... It is called Laughin'fertility and is a lighthearted read about the journey through infertility and IVF. It is written by Lisa Safran. I added it to the book review forum if you are interested!
Elizabeth

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