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Lindsay
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HI everyone...

I've never ever been in a forum before! Ever! Crazy huh? I've been reading through every pregnancy and TTC forum out there for the last few months, getting info, learning stuff, etc...

So.. a little about me.. I'm 26. I've been with my husband, Ed, for 5 years, and we've been married just 4 months. We've both always wanted a family, so it was the natural next step for us after we were married. Actually, to be honest we both thought we'd wait at least a couple years.

Ed's aunt is a psychic, card reader and all that jazz and I let her read my card about 8 months ago. She told me a bunch of stuff, and also told me that she saw babies in my future VERY soon. She said December would be an important month in terms of this. I broke into cold sweats right there in front of her and downed a glass of water in between "no no no's" lol. I walked away from that visit thinking NOTHING about the baby bit, but about how she said my house was going to catch fire and how my job was unstable. Since then we purchased insurance we didnt have before and replaced our very disfunctional (and hazardous) stove, and I've had to do some serious rearranging at work. She was very accurate. I didn't think again about the baby bit after having a good laugh about it with my hubby the day of my visit. Neither one of us believed her. The strangest thing happened though... In November Ed come to me one night and asked me "how would you feel about having a baby?". We discussed it for about a week and started TTC that month, and then seriously in December. How strange when I think about it, how fast we changed, how incredibly important it suddenly became for us to have a family. How deep and almost primal my desire to be a mother became. It happened almost out of the blue, and yet it feels like it was always meant to be this way.

So we did everything right in December (we had missed my O day in November). My period started on the 9th, I ovulated on the 20th, and I made sure everything went according to plan. I swear the last two weeks have been the absolute longest of my life. I was symptom spotting like crazy! My boobs hurt like nothing else, I was nauseous in the evenings, tired, hungry all the time, etc etc etc. Unfortunately, I am now 16dpo and I have bee having AF cramps for the past few days. Though this is unusual for me, I know for a fact that AF will be here any minute now. I started spotting VERY slightly yesterday and it is only a matter of time now.

I was so sad yesterday, I went home and crawled into bed and felt sorry for myself for a few hours. I ate some dinner and ordered some preseed and ovulation sticks online and went to sleep. I woke up feeling better, still sad, but optimistic for January. That lasted for most of the morning, but half way through today I had a breakdown. I felt utterly heartbroken. I know, it's only our second cycle, get over it. But what an emotional roller coaster this is! My girlfriend is 20 weeks and she found out today that her baby is a girl. It made my day and got my head back in the game.

So thats where I am right now. Not pregnant, crampy, grumpy, but looking forward to January. I am optimistic and nervous at the same time. I'm going to hang out here and check out the forums, I'll give support and I'll need support. I'm so incredibly glad these places exist Smile

Are introductions supposed to be this long? Probably not... I'm a talker lol

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Mollywobbles
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Welcome! I like the way you write. I think I'll be following your journey. Smile

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Elizabeth
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Hi Lindsay! Welcome to the forum, I think you will love it here the women are wonderful!

I second Molly in that you have a gift for writing. If you are interested, there is a thread where folks are blogging about their TTC expriences, you would be an awesome addition!

Isn't it crazy that tricks our body plays on us while we are TTC, it is such a crazy emotional roller coaster. Know that you are surrounded by folks who "get it" and want to support you in any way possible.

Also, if you are interested.... check out the TTC Buddies thread and let me know if you would like me to add you to a group. It is a wonderful way to connect with others and get some extra support along your way to your BFP.

Again,
Welcome! I am sooooooo glad you are here!
Elizabeth

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Lindsay
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HI girls!

Thanks so much for the comments. I did indeed see the blogging area, and I think it's calling to me. Sometimes I have all these thoughts and emotions running through me and nowhere to let them out. My husband is wonderful, but he doesn't really understand what's going on inside me. So, look out bloggers, here I come!

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Elizabeth
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Smile

Do you want me to add you to a buddy group as well?

Fingers crossed for a quick BFP!

Elizabeth

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Lindsay
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Hi Elizabeth!

Wow, sorry for the late response! I'd love a buddy group! Thank you!

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Elizabeth
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Hi Lindsay,
No Worries!

I have you all set up in a group with chellie 505, Momof2TTC, Mrs.Taylor-Smith, Weavert7, amandapids and daniematt.

Feel free to read the older posts to get to know your buddies, and then and your intro.

If after a week you feel like it is not a good fit for any reason, let me know and we can try another one!

Welcome again!
Elizabeth

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Lindsay
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Thanks Elizabeth!

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