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Hello?
Funny, that is the first word that comes to mind as I type my first ever blog post (and it comes out as a question no less)!
I (we) got married November 2, 2012. For a couple months before the wedding my friends would ask when we thought we would get pregnant... the honeymoon maybe? I knew for sure that wouldn't happen, because I would still be on BCP then, and only planned to stop using the patch when my prescription ran out a month after.
On Dec. 8/12 I removed my last patch... and immediately was overtaken by an emotion like I had never before witnessed... anticipation. I waited for AF which came right on time like always with the patch, I waited for the first time my husband and I would have our first real BD (which of course knowing the consequences was quite exciting). I then waited, and waited until I was on CD30 and took a HPT... BFN! and every two weeks after that, BFN.
I was actually starting to wonder if I was like a friend of mine who had been TTC last year unsuccessfully due to PCOS, until February 24th when finally AF happened (very heavy and painful, I had to have the heated wheat bag for some relief of the cramps which I had never had before). I was then very relieved, my hormones must have just needed some extra time to kick in after being on BCP for 8 years.
So again with all of the good intended anticipation I thought I was on track and everything was a go for launching the TTC plan. I started tracking my BBT (on a chart I made on excel, I even gave myself a 42 day window) thinking it may be just a little longer than 28-35 days again... was it ever!?
After surpassing the 42 days my home made chart had to offer, I downloaded an app on my iPhone to keep track of my never-ending cycle. On CD100 I saw my Dr. who ordered a blood test and scheduled a follow up a month later. Between my 2 Dr.'s appointments I went to see a holistic Dr. to see if he could help (my first time ever discussing AF with a man other than my husband, who at this point was wondering if I was broken!) I thought it might increase my odds having two Dr.'s working on the same thing for me.
On July 4th I saw my regular Dr. for the results of my blood test, nothing wrong with my blood, but a look at my hormone levels revealed an all over the map scatter shot... I got a prescription for provera to force AF to show up. After taking the 10 day dose I was prescribed and living on my holistic diet plan for a couple weeks my 140 cycle finally ended. July 14, 2013 I started my first regular cycle, and I say that with quite a bit of non-belief as I tracked BBT and even used OPK to see if and when I would ovulate (not wanting to be completely in the dark for another 140 days). Dr. had also sent me for an ultrasound (I'm sure to check for cycsts) and found "a sizable fibroid" and also a lot of happy little follicles just waiting to ovulate. After the results of my U/S I was sent again for another set of blood tests for CD 21 (I haven't got the results from last blood test yet) Just as I was about to give up on the whole thing and declare myself incapable of something so simple AF showed up and suddenly my chart made complete sense... there was an increase in temperature (not as big as I was expecting, but it was there) and I had missed 2-3 days with my OPK when I went away for an awesome color run. But AF was very light, and not painful at all... maybe the holistic approach is working for that? Anyway I see my Dr. on Sept.3 for results and hopefully be able to ask her some questions... if I remember what they are.

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Today's subject: If you build it...

It is my day off today, I only have 1 this weekend but will have 3 days off next weekend!
I spent my day doing such wonderful things, that I totally didn't plan on doing... as I woke up with some kind of weird tightness in my chest and throat, what's that about? Anyway, as my husband has been gone all day, I had the whole day to do whatever my heart desired. I did 4 loads of laundry, made a roast beef, a loaf of bread, and a loaf of banana bread... and while all that was going on (as there is a machine in the house to do all of that for me, thanks to wedding presents ha ha) I made the top piece of a baby blanket. It has some embroidered patches that my husband's grandmother made (60+ years ago). I put it all together with light turquoise borders, it is beautiful! I also feel a little bit of a bond with my husband's grandmother, even though I never met her... I think it is wonderful that our future baby will have their first quilt that was made with love from their mom and great-grandmother.
So, having the quilt top made, I'm hoping this is a sign to the baby gods that we are ready to receive a little boy or girl anytime.

I should also add that I do welcome any comments from anyone who has any questions or advice Smile

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Elherr, welcome to this forum! It is a wonderful place, with lots of supportive women! I joined here a few years ago when we were TTC with #1. It was so helpful to be able to talk to people who understood the frustrations with TTC. I hope you find it just as helpful! We are now TTC with #2! It must sooooo frustrating to have such long and uncertain cycles. It sounds like you are taking the right steps in dealing with them though. I'm glad they founds lots of little follicles, there is lots of hope for babies! What will the doctor do about the fibroid? Can they just leave it be? BBT is very helpful!!! We used to help us get pregnant with our first. I wished I had heard of it before, because it is so neat to learn about all the signals are body gives us! How long did your last cycle end up being? And what CD do you think ovulated on? I hope that as you find your cycle more predictable that you conceive soon! If you're interested, I'm part of a group in the TTC Buddies section of this website. There are several of us TTC right now, you are welcome to join us! You can send a request to Elizabeth if you're interested. Smile Baby dust to you!

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tlee, thank you for your response! My last cycle was 35 days and I think I ovulated on CD20 or 21, but not sure as I was away from home and didn't get to use my OPK but that is when it shows on my chart the increase in BBT.
I am very interested in joining the group, so hopefully see you there soon!

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F!
Alrighty... so I know technically we haven't been ttc for "a long time" yet, but I really thought it wouldn't take this long just to regulate my stupid cycle!!!
AF showed up yesterday making my last cycle the most unpredictable 16 day cycle ever!
I had a Dr. appointment today so I told her what was happening and she even did a pregnancy test... I don't know why but even though I was quite certain I couldn't possibly be pregnant I was excited at the fact that she was even testing me, then she re-entered the room a couple minutes later and said nope, not this time. After that we had a short conversation about how I should keep tracking my cycles, I told her how my BBT had been all up and down like a roller coaster the last 16 days. She asked how much of a drop or spike I was having, so I just showed her my cycle tracker on my iPhone. We reviewed the 3 that I have on there, the first one 148 days, second 35 days, and the last one being 16 days. She said I should keep tracking over the next few months.
After my appointment I was feeling a little irritated and ended up hitting the drive thru and getting a sandwich and iced coffee... something which I have been avoiding for about 8 weeks, as I have been trying to eat clean in order to lose weight and get as healthy as possible. Needless to say, after my appointment I was like why not?!?! It's not like I'm gonna be having a baby now anyway!!! It wasn't until I was almost done my sugar binge of an iced coffee that I realized what I had just done. F!
I also realized today that I've been talking my best friends ear off about all of this (she is at a completely different stage of life, single and looking... not at all concerned with getting pregnant). She actually lectured me on how we haven't been trying that long... I know she's about done listening since she began with "I love you, but..." she only says that when she doesn't want to hear about whatever I'm obsessing about.
Therefore, I feel like I need to at least give her a break from listening to my questions about fertility (which she can't answer), and talking about my latest effort to try to increase my fertility (which she probably doesn't believe in). So I guess I'll be adding to my blog a lot more often, as I now feel like it is my only outlet.

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So I found out that my "sizable fibroid" is only a 1/2 inch in diameter... I don't think that is sizable at all.

This cycle I am tracking with BBT, ovulation tests, and this neat little saliva microscope thingy I got from early-pregnancy-tests.com. We're also using preseed now.

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I live in Alberta, Canada. The temperature is starting to cool off, which means no more days where it over 30 degrees (thank goodness, I basically start to melt when it's that hot) Now the warmest temps are anywhere from 20-25 (which I can so deal with). I was looking at my flower bed in the front yard last night and thinking to myself how amazing it is that it can still manage a few more blooms so late in the season... I honestly thought all of the flowers I planted were only supposed to bloom in the spring. As I hadn't been 100% nurturing my plants, when I saw some of them trying to bloom again and most of them still a healthy green I groomed the bed and decided to help it along a little, maybe have one more beautiful bloom before the frost comes.
DH and I have decided that it is time for me to stay home full time (we live on a farm/ranch and that means for me to get to work is a 50 km commute). Both of us were raised on farms, with our mothers being stay-at-home mothers... so both of us have always wanted that for our children. I'm excited to be staying home and being able to get to spend more time with DH (which hopefully means more appropriate timing for BD, lol) My last day at work is scheduled for Halloween... I have a great amount of respect for my boss, so I gave her lots of notice.
DH seems very supportive of my fertility efforts as of lately (perhaps a more regular cycle makes it seem more likely for us to be successful than no cycle at all) He is aware of the time every morning when I take my temperature and has even taken an interest in the charting.

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Hi! I'm also from Alberta! I live just outside of Edmonton, where abouts are you?! There is another girl on here from Calgary, pretty funny that we have 3 albertans on here!

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I live outside of Medicine Hat! Great to know there is support relatively close to home ha ha!

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I live in Calgary!!!!! cool that we are relatively all close!!!

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That's awesome, we can relate on the Canadian end of healthcare etc, sometimes I'm confused when the people from the US talk about their healthcare and I also feel really lucky to live in Canada and get a year mat leave and free healthcare!

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