Thank You Elizabeth.
I did'nt know how I would spend the hour. Wether I would sit and cry the entire time. And say over and over, "Why me?" But, I didn't! I spent the hour with my son. Thanking God that I do have a healthy child. And just devoted all my time and attention to him. At the end of the hour I had my son blow out the candle. I will light it again on March 20th, 2010. Which would have been my due date. It was a hard day yesterday, but now it is time to move forward. Even though our angel is looking over us. And will be back with us again someday. We have to move on. I will always carry him/her with me!
~Mary~
Hello there Santinosmommy:
Thank-you for telling me the significance of yesterday! I never got up the nerve to watch the video on utube, for fear that I wouldn't be able to handle any more sadness!! So with that being said, I didn't know how long, I was suppose to light my candles?
It's sad to admit to you that I almost forget to light my three candles yesterday and when I finally did, I kept them lit until 12am!!!
I've been feeling so much emptiness inside and after I having the procedure done on Wednesday morning, it's just almost become, unbearable to deal with things!
If it wasn't for Adren, I probably wouldn't have never gotten out of bed these last two days!
Also, I plan to light a candle, next Thursday morning, because, the twentysecond is the due date from my first m/c! How are you doing on this day after? Take care of yourself and I'll check back in later on!!!
Hi Adrensmom,
How are you doing? Like I say~ it's one day at a time! I know what you mean by probly never getting out of bed. If it were'nt for Santino I probly would have made a perminet mark in the bed! Butt, you have to stay strong. You have to be a mommy and a wife. If it were'nt for me getting on this computer and having such great support from on here. And also on The What TO expect Grief and Loss Forum. Man I don't know what I would be thinking!! I absoluety have my moments where I cry. And just think of how big I would be right now. And almost being able to find out if it's a boy or girl. And it's like why???? Taken away to quickly!!!
I can't wait, and can wait to get pregnant again. I'm scared of M/C again. But I'm also so ready to have another child!! And you just have to move on in a way. And keep going! We kinda make a joke about the due date. It was March 20th. And I hate St. Patty's Day. And I kept saying I did not want a St. Patty's Day baby. And the baby knew it. But what can ya do???!!!
So we are TTC again. And hoping for this next pregnancy to bring us a healthy baby!
~Mary~
Thank You Elizabeth.
I did'nt know how I would spend the hour. Wether I would sit and cry the entire time. And say over and over, "Why me?" But, I didn't! I spent the hour with my son. Thanking God that I do have a healthy child. And just devoted all my time and attention to him. At the end of the hour I had my son blow out the candle. I will light it again on March 20th, 2010. Which would have been my due date. It was a hard day yesterday, but now it is time to move forward. Even though our angel is looking over us. And will be back with us again someday. We have to move on. I will always carry him/her with me!
~Mary~
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Hello there Santinosmommy:
Thank-you for telling me the significance of yesterday! I never got up the nerve to watch the video on utube, for fear that I wouldn't be able to handle any more sadness!! So with that being said, I didn't know how long, I was suppose to light my candles?
It's sad to admit to you that I almost forget to light my three candles yesterday and when I finally did, I kept them lit until 12am!!!
I've been feeling so much emptiness inside and after I having the procedure done on Wednesday morning, it's just almost become, unbearable to deal with things!
If it wasn't for Adren, I probably wouldn't have never gotten out of bed these last two days!
Also, I plan to light a candle, next Thursday morning, because, the twentysecond is the due date from my first m/c! How are you doing on this day after? Take care of yourself and I'll check back in later on!!!
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Hi Adrensmom,
How are you doing? Like I say~ it's one day at a time! I know what you mean by probly never getting out of bed. If it were'nt for Santino I probly would have made a perminet mark in the bed! Butt, you have to stay strong. You have to be a mommy and a wife. If it were'nt for me getting on this computer and having such great support from on here. And also on The What TO expect Grief and Loss Forum. Man I don't know what I would be thinking!! I absoluety have my moments where I cry. And just think of how big I would be right now. And almost being able to find out if it's a boy or girl. And it's like why???? Taken away to quickly!!!
I can't wait, and can wait to get pregnant again. I'm scared of M/C again. But I'm also so ready to have another child!! And you just have to move on in a way. And keep going! We kinda make a joke about the due date. It was March 20th. And I hate St. Patty's Day. And I kept saying I did not want a St. Patty's Day baby. And the baby knew it. But what can ya do???!!!
So we are TTC again. And hoping for this next pregnancy to bring us a healthy baby!
~Mary~
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